朋友就是相同的灵魂注入进了不同的身体。
Friendship is what happens when the same soul finds itself in different bodies.
2026 09/30 - 🌧️，MLK
之前刷到过一句话“如果两个人注定要分开，那么相遇的意义是什么？”
其中最高赞的回答是：
“人类，是爱过的人拼成的马赛克。”
我至今系鞋带的方式，是爸爸妈妈教的；
我会喝茶，是因为小时候总爱看外公泡茶叶；
水果总对半吃。除了梨 朋友说分梨就是分离；
外面吃饭要烫餐具，妈妈说这样卫生；
见到井盖会下意识的绕着走，朋友说踩了怕掉下去；
每次晚上玩手机都会开灯，你说关了灯玩手机对眼睛不好
握笔的姿势是老师纠正的；
爱的征兆就是模仿、影响、改变。
每个走进你生命的人，都会留下痕迹。只不过这些痕迹，有些太浅，有些很深。
我是每一个爱我的人拼成的马赛克，每一拍心跳都有来处。
所以相遇的意必是：
“被你改变的那部分的我，代替了你永远陪在我身边。"
记中秋。
I once came across a question: “If two people are destined to part ways, then what was the meaning of meeting in the first place?” The most-liked answer was: “Human beings are mosaics made from all the people they have loved.”
The way I tie my shoelaces is something my parents taught me. I learned to drink tea because, as a child, I loved watching my grandfather brew it. I always eat fruit in halves—except pears. A friend once told me that “sharing a pear” sounds like “seperation.”(in Chinese) Whenever I eat out, I still scald the utensils first because my mother said it was more hygienic. Whenever I see a manhole cover, I instinctively walk around it because a friend once told me I might fall through. Whenever I use my phone at night, I turn on the light because you once told me that using a phone in the dark is bad for your eyes. The way I hold a pen was corrected by a teacher. The signs of love are imitation, influence, and change.
Everyone who enters your life leaves something behind. Some traces are barely visible; others run deep. I am a mosaic made from everyone who has loved me. Every beat of my heart has a story behind it.And perhaps that is the meaning of meeting someone:
The part of me that you changed will remain in me, taking your place and keeping you by my side forever. Happy Mooncake Festival
2026 09/25 - ☀️，MLK
朋友们，请不要感激我在你失意的时候伴你左右，也不要感激我不厌其烦地开导你、劝慰你。我们同病相怜，每当我为你梳理心结的时候，其实也是在为自己疗伤。
My friends, please don’t thank me for being by your side when you’re going through a difficult time, or for patiently talking you through your troubles and comforting you.
We’re all wounded in similar ways. Every time I help you untangle the knots in your heart, I’m also healing a part of myself.
2026 09/23 - ☀️，MLK
忽然想起这段台词。“你不找我 我不找你 各自开心 无所谓什么失望不失望的 投之以桃报之以李 你对我好我就对你更好 你冷落我我就走得远远的 不刻意讨好 不委屈自己 无论爱情友情都是这样的道理 所以啊 要自爱。”
Suddenly remembered this line:
“If you don’t reach out to me, I won’t reach out to you. We each live our own lives and stay happy. There’s no need to dwell on disappointment.
I give back what I receive. If you treat me well, I’ll treat you even better. If you ignore me, I’ll walk away and keep my distance.
I won’t force myself to please anyone, and I won’t sacrifice my own happiness just to hold on. Whether it’s love or friendship, the same principle applies.
So, above all, learn to love yourself.”
2026 09/21 - ☀️，MLK
你一定要相信：人生真的会突然变好的而变好的，契机可能就是任何一件你打算去做的事。你要好好吃饭睡觉，收抬房间，研究自已喜欢的东西。高高兴兴的把生命力养起来，自己浑身是劲气血十足。当你拥有明媚张扬向上的生命力的时候，你就会发现原来生活的每一个瞬间都有无数众生在托举你向上走。那些你读过的书，熬过的夜，迈过的坎都在不动声色地把你推向更明亮的地方。只要你足够相信且全力以赴，命运就会把你送到合适的位置上。
You have to believe this: life really can suddenly get better. And the turning point may be hidden in anything you decide to do. Eat well. Sleep well. Tidy your room. Explore the things you love. Take joy in nurturing your vitality, until you feel strong, alive, and full of energy.
When you carry that bright, unapologetic, upward-moving vitality within you, you’ll begin to realize that every moment of life is being quietly supported by countless lives and forces, all helping you rise. The books you’ve read, the nights you’ve stayed up, and the hardships you’ve overcome are all, silently, pushing you toward somewhere brighter.
As long as you believe deeply enough and give it everything you have, life will eventually bring you to where you’re meant to be.
2026 09/20 - ☀️，MLK
偶然听到我妈对小朋友的语音信息，教导他： “不要看到别人交卷了，自己就急着乱写答案。” 觉得很受用。
I overheard my mum telling her ex-school kids over Whatsapp Voice:
“Just because others has handed in their exam paper doesn’t mean you should rush to fill yours with random answers.”
Somehow, I found that advice deeply applicable to life.
2026 09/17 - 🌧️，MLK
偶然听到我妈对小朋友的语音信息，教导他： “不要看到别人交卷了，自己就急着乱写答案。” 觉得很受用。
I overheard my mum telling her ex-school kids over Whatsapp Voice:
“Just because others has handed in their exam paper doesn’t mean you should rush to fill yours with random answers.”
Somehow, I found that advice deeply applicable to life.
2026 09/17 - 🌧️，MLK
容易喜欢上别人、喜欢依赖上别人，对对方抱有期待，那都是病，得电，得打，得抽，得扇，得薅住头发飞起一脚把睾丸踹碎，让你贱，让你贱，让你贱，看你还长不长记性。
Easily falling for someone, becoming rely on them, and placing expectations on them—that’s all a proven psychological illness. It needs electricity, beatings, punches, slaps, and someone grabbing you by the hair and delivering a flying kick straight to the balls.
“Look at you, Being pathetic. Being pathetic. Being pathetic. Let’s see if you ever learn your lesson through all pains.”
2026 09/15 - ☁️☀️，MLK
可怕的不是对方不理你，而是你发现自己比以前更爱对方了。
What’s scary isn’t being ignored by the person you love, but realizing that you love them more than you ever did before.
2026 09/14 - ☀️，MLK
当你觉得对方不好的地方都很好的时候，就证明你整个人已经不好了。
When you start seeing even the things you dislike about someone as good, that’s when you already lost your mind.
2026 09/11 - ☀️，MLK
恋爱时可以互相体谅一百次，但一次原谅都不能给。
In love, you can be understanding a hundred times over, but forgiveness should never be given even once.
2026 09/10 - 🌧️，MLK
不打钱给你擦眼泪的人都不是真正了解你的人。
Anyone who doesn’t send you money to wipe your tears isn’t someone who truly understands you.
2026 09/08 - ☀️，MLK
你既是我的砒霜也是我的解药。[[hzq.m_]]
You are both my poison and my cure. [[hzq.m_]]
2026 09/05 - ☀️，MLK
亲爱的虽然我很爱你但是如果哪天我杀了人你没有帮忙收拾现场的话，那我还是会杀了你的。
Baby, I love you very much, but if I ever kill someone and you don’t help me clean up the scene, I’ll still kill you.
2026 09/03 - ☀️，MLK
总是反复不停想一个人多半是因为对方懒得搭理你。
If you keep thinking about someone over and over again, chances are they’re simply too lazy to give you the attention you want.
2026 09/01 - ☀️，MLK
当别人告诉你一切都会没事的时候其实每件事都不对劲可是别人帮不了，可是知道你死不去，所以只好这样了。
When people tell you that everything will be fine, when in reality everything is going wrong, they simply can’t help you. They know you won’t die from it, so I guess this is all they can do.
2026 08/31 - ☀️，MLK
就算每天告诉自己你其实也没什么了不起的，可是还是想和你在一起。
I keep telling myself every day that you’re not even that special, and yet I still want to be with you.
2026 08/27 - ☀️，MLK
宇宙的永恒定律：不喜欢的人都比较难看，喜欢的人心都比较狠。
The universe’s eternal law: the people we dislike are always uglier, and the people we deeply like always have the cruelest hearts.
2026 08/25 - ☁️🌧️，MLK
有的时候特别在意一个人是因为对另一人无能为力。
Sometimes, we become deeply invested in one person simply because there’s someone else we can do nothing about him.
2026 08/18 - ☁️，MLK
好的电影应该是剧情发展到最后一个都没活下来的意难平；好的爱情就是我们恋爱最后没有在一起。
A great film leaves you haunted by an ending where no one survives. A great love story is one where, after everything we’ve been through, we still don’t end up together.
2026 08/12 - ☀️，MLK
世间太险恶，和人类难相处，可是和我的猫又处不了。
The world is cruel, human are difficult, and somehow, even my own cat doesn’t want to get along with me.
2026 08/09 - ☁️，MLK
真心发下的毒誓听起来很假，可是故作诚恳的谎话听起来却很真。
Sincere vows made in earnest often sound fake, while lies told with feigned sincerity can sound so real.
2026 08/01 - ☀️，MLK
说一个不好笑的笑话给他听，如果他笑不停就表示他很爱你。
Tell him a joke that isn’t funny. If he can’t stop laughing, it means he really loves you.
2026 07/26 - ☀️，MLK
发现你近来过的特别好却不是因为我，于是我觉得自己是世上最大的废物。算了，屌你！
When I realized you’ve been doing so well lately, and none of it was because of me, I suddenly felt like the biggest loser in the world. Well, fuck you!
2026 07/12 - ☀️，MLK
所谓贱，就是想立刻飞奔到你面前喊一句：“去死吧！”
Being a fool in love is wanting to run straight to you, only to shout at you, “Go to hell in a hand-basket !”
2026 07/05 - ☀️，MLK
想找人倾诉的时候发现我多年存到的联系人一个都没用。
When I need someone to talk to, I realize that none of the contacts I’ve saved over the years are actually useful.
2026 06/13 - ☀️，MLK
想找个人追，等追到手之后再告诉对方我要所有人不喜欢我一样不喜欢你。
I feel like finding someone to fall in love with, and then tell them, “I don't like you just as much as everyone else did to me.”
2026 06/07 - ☀️，MLK
不要试图去爱上一个每次和你聊天字数不超过十个字的人。
Don’t fall for someone who never texts you more than ten words at a time.
2026 06/02 - ☀️，MLK
努力过未必能赢，什么也不做也不见得会输。
Trying your best doesn’t guarantee a win, and doing nothing doesn’t necessarily mean you’ll lose.
2026 05/17 - ☀️，MLK
或许我们都在寻找这么一个人，能在我笑最大声的时候能一眼看穿我的不开心。
Maybe we’re all looking for someone who can see through our unhappiness, even when we’re laughing the loudest.
2026 05/03 - ☀️，MLK
可怕的不是对方不理你，而是你发现自己比以前更爱对方了。
What’s scary isn’t being ignored by him, but realizing you love them more than you used to.
2026 04/21 - ☀️，MLK
只要有流量异地恋就不会断。
Long-distance love never ends—as long as we have mobile data.
2026 04/17 - ☀️，MLK
爱一点也不复杂，只要你一直不联系他，那你就永远就不会输。
Love is actually pretty simple: just never text them first, so that you’ll never lose.
2026 03/22 - ☀️，MLK
只要长得好看不讲道理也是道理。（记无人祝福的生日）
When you’re good-looking, even being unreasonable makes sense. (a birthday no one remembered to wish me)
2026 03/22 - ☀️，MLK
情绪低谷的时候别人总劝我要乐观，只有你会偷偷给我打钱。
When I’m at my lowest, everyone tells me to stay positive. You’re the only one who secretly sends me money.
2026 02/18 - ☀️，MLK
当别人劝你要有自信的时候，也就意味着你丑到剩自信了。
When people tell you to be confident, it means you’re so ugly that confidence is all you have left.
2026 01/03 - 🌧️，MLK
你笑起来真好看，可是你不喜欢我，所以我觉得我很可笑，你也不好看了。
You have such a beautiful smile. But because you don’t like me, I find myself ridiculous—and suddenly, so do you.
2025 12/13 - ☁️，MLK
有时候两个特别相爱的人吵架吵得天翻地覆仅仅是因为彼此都想被对方哄一哄。
Sometimes two people who love each other deeply can have a huge fight, simply because they both want to be comforted by the other.
2025 11/09 - 🌧️，MLK
人的疑心越来越重是因为不喜欢可以假装喜欢也可以假装。
Human become more suspicious because someone can pretend not to like you, they can also pretend to like you.
2025 09/05 - 🌧️，MLK
永远不要和无趣的人聊你最感兴趣的东西，不然他们一定会觉得你很无趣。
Never talk about the things you love most with boring people—they’ll just think you’re boring too.
2025 08/22 - ☀️，MLK
拉黑他们的是我，走不出来的是我。
I’m the one who blocked them, yet I’m the one who can’t move on.
2025 07/12 - ☁️，MLK
他选择他并不是他长得多好看，很有可能是因为他没得选。
He chose him not because he’s that good-looking, but maybe because he had no other choice.
2025 05/17 - ☀️，MLK
时间是用来流浪的；身体是用来相爱的；灵魂是用来歌唱的；生命是用来遗忘的。
Time is meant for wandering; the body is meant for loving; the soul is meant for singing; life is meant for forgetting.
2025 05/15 - ☀️，MLK
潜意识里认为很近的路，却直径步行走了将近四公里才到家，忽然想起米兰·昆德拉的一句话：“往哪走，都是往前走。”
I thought it was a shortcut walk, but I ended up walking nearly 4km back home. Then I suddenly remembered Milan Kundera’s words: “Wherever you go, you’re still moving forward.”
2025 04/27 - ☀️，MLK
在一切似乎行将终结之际，总会有新的力量相继而来 / 弗兰茨·卡夫卡《卡夫卡日记》
Just when everything seems to be coming to an end, yet new strength always finds its way to us. — Franz Kafka, Kafka’s Diaries
2025 04/13 - ☀️，KL
把自己活成一道光，因为你不知道，谁会借着你的光，走出了黑暗。
Be your own light, because you never know whose way out of the darkness your light might help illuminate them.
2025 03/25 - ☀️，MLK
真正的自由始终是以选择和限制为前提的。你能够有走花丛间，一旦你选择爱上这朵花，也就是拒绝别的花。
True freedom always comes with choices and limitations. You can wander through a field of flowers, but once you choose to love one, you’re choosing to let the others go.
2025 03/23 - ☀️，MLK
生活如同解题，知识点会反复变换着模样以各种问题的方式出现，知道你做对了，学会了为止。
Life is like solving a problem. The lessons keep coming back in different forms, until you get them right and truly learnt.
2024 12/26 - ☁️🌧️，MLK
希望天下想要成为父母的人，你们都能承担得起孩子有一天在痛苦中问你： "为什么你要生我？" 这个问题。
I hope everyone who wants to become a parent can be prepared to answer this question from their child one day, through their pain: “Why did you have me?”
2024 12/12 - ☀️，MLK
今天我迟到了9分钟。见到你，就如同四年前一样，我语塞并保持微笑，我们一起走向废船的方向，你请了咖啡。
不知何时开始，你从 cold brew 转向了冰拿铁。我们拿着杯在烈日下前进。我们中途寒暄，走走停停找翻墙的角落，爬过岸边的礁石，走向郑和号。你一直走在我的身后，可我却想一直看着你的背影，希望一直烙在我的脑海里。之后我们去享用午餐，聊了 fate。
回到酒店，我先洗澡，就瘫在床上。你洗澡之后你直接换上衣服也倒下了，你突然抓着我拖进怀里。这次一个久违的举动，极度窝心且让我充满疑惑。我一直回溯我们在一起的一切过去与现在，这片刻那么的近也那么的遥远。纵使我多么眷恋，多翻陷入怀疑我不配的困境。再次相遇让我坚信我变得更好了。
你从来向我表达你的想法，你的情绪，你的内在世界总是难以捉摸，导致我们靠得那么近离得那么远。我累了那么多年，不差这些时间，反正我们只要不见面也几乎不联系。现在我希望你找到一个你愿意厮守的人，哪怕不是我，我依然祝福你！
或许，你就不该在 2017 年年末的某个早晨在星巴克用直击我灵魂的双眸多看我一眼。
I was nine minutes late today.
When I saw you, just like four years ago, I was lost for words and could only keep smiling. We walked together toward the direction of the abandoned ship, and you bought me coffee.
At some point, you went from cold brew to iced lattes. We walked under the scorching sun, coffee in hand. Along the way, we made small talk, stopping every now and then to look for a place to climb over the wall. We climbed across the rocks by the shore and made our way toward the Cheng Ho Ship.
You kept walking behind me, yet I found myself wanting to keep looking at your back, hoping the image of you would stay etched in my mind forever.
Later, we had lunch and talked about fate.
Back at the hotel, I showered first and collapsed onto the bed. After your shower, you simply changed and lay down beside me. Then, suddenly, you pulled me into your arms.
It was a gesture I had missed for so long—so comforting, yet it left me filled with questions. I kept going back over everything between us, the past and the present. In that moment, we felt so close, yet somehow so far away. No matter how much I longed for you, I kept falling back into the belief that I wasn't worthy of you. But seeing you again made me certain of one thing: I have become a better version of myself.
You have never really expressed your thoughts or emotions to me. Your inner world has always been so difficult to understand. Maybe that's why we could be so close, yet always feel so far apart.
I've been tired for so many years. I suppose I can endure a little longer. Besides, when we're apart, we barely see each other and hardly ever talk anyway.
Now, I only hope that you find someone you truly want to spend your life with. Even if that person isn't me, I will still wish you happiness.
Perhaps you should never have looked at me one extra second with those eyes that pierced straight into my soul, on a certain morning at Starbucks at the end of 2017.
2024 11/23 - ☀️🌧️，MLK
昨天他信息我突然说来马六甲找我。我们总是不擅长和不属于自己的东西说再见，多年分别 ... 即便过去的决定和处理方式现在看起来并不完全正确，然而一切的去留，都是那时的自己做出的最好的选择。原来，这个世界一直都是守恒的，你伤害了别人，其他人又伤害了你...break even 没有什么是不能释怀的。
“You can give your heart to someone, but it’s their choice to hold it gently or break it into pieces. What you can do is to keep trying. harvesting. feeling and letting go. ”
“Hope to see you again someday soon.” 但也许，这就是我们最后一次见面了吧...和旧友告别，在回家的路上，我抓紧用手机备忘录收拾一下散落在各处的思绪碎片，让流动的情感不要太快地流逝...回看过往，感觉像是在看其他人的故事。而生活真正令人向往的，是那些能够遇见爱的转角，在你并未抱有期待的平凡日子里，怦然出现。
Yesterday, he suddenly texted me and said he was coming to Malacca to see me.
We’ve never been good at saying goodbye to things that were never truly ours. After years apart, even if some of the decisions we made and the ways we handled things don’t seem completely right in hindsight, every coming and going was still the best choice we could make with who we were at the time.
Perhaps this world has always been about balance. You hurt someone, and someone else hurts you. Break even. There’s nothing that can’t eventually be let go.
“You can give your heart to someone, but it’s their choice whether to hold it gently or break it into pieces. All you can do is keep trying, harvesting, feeling, and letting go.”
“Hope to see you again someday soon.” But perhaps this was the last time we’ll ever see each other.
After saying goodbye to an old friend, I held onto my phone on the way home, trying to gather the scattered fragments of my thoughts in the Notes app, before these fleeting emotions disappeared too quickly.
Looking back at everything that happened, it feels almost like I’m watching someone else’s story.
Perhaps what makes life truly worth looking forward to are those unexpected turns where you happen to meet love—appearing suddenly on an ordinary day, when you weren’t expecting anything at all.
2024 11/21 - 🌧️，MLK
长时间无法直面自己的感受，总习惯把爱和悲伤藏起来，冷眼看待周遭的人来人往，表现出一副波澜不惊，情绪稳定的样子...…不敢相信心动，却又不曾拥有理智。每天把自己塞进看似绚丽多彩的日程里，生怕一有空闲就胡思乱想...逃避，再逃避，自洽，再自洽，拉拉扯扯，反反复复，像躲不掉的地心引力...然而即便伤痕累累，我也不想重启人生，所有的收获与失去，造就了此时此刻的我，脆弱，敏感，却依然充满幻想的我。
For a long time, I couldn’t face my own feelings. I got used to hiding both love and sadness, watching the people around me come and go with a detached gaze, always pretending to be calm and unaffected.
I was afraid to believe in the feeling of falling for someone, yet I never seemed to have any sense of reason either. Every day, I filled my schedule with things that looked colorful and exciting, afraid that the moment I had free time, my mind would start wandering.
Avoiding, then avoiding some more. Finding reasons to make peace with myself, then doing it all over again. Constantly pulling myself back and forth, repeating the same cycle, like a force of gravity I could never escape.
And yet, even though I’ve been left covered in scars, I still wouldn’t want to restart my life.
Everything I’ve gained and everything I’ve lost has shaped the person I am today—fragile, sensitive, yet still full of dreams.
2024 11/21 - 🌧️，MLK
「一辈子只做一种人确实没什么意思，支持大家都经常换换自己。」
Living your whole life as just one version of yourself does seem a little boring. I fully support reinventing yourself every now and then.
2024 11/21 - 🌧️，MLK
真实自我的精神富足才是对抗外部世界的良药。
A rich inner self is the best medicine for facing the world outside.
2024 11/13 - ☀️，MLK
「愿你敏感而任性，沉浸于美与纯粹，从繁复的关系中抽离，只需专注和关爱自己。」
May you remain sensitive and free-spirited, immersed in beauty and purity, detached from complicated relationships, and devoted simply to yourself.
2024 10/3 - ☀️，MLK
「我可以放弃我现在拥有的一切。但我并非山穷水尽，因为我的爱意从未枯竭。」 ----- 常玉
“I can give up everything I have now. But I am not at the end of my road, because my capacity to love has never run dry.” — Sanyu
2024 9/20 - ☀️，MLK
晚上FB 突然找到一个小学同学的账号，想到了曾经把我的橡皮掰断，抢了我的文具，涂抹了我的作业的那位 … 在当时，很长一段的孩童时期让我极度崩溃的同学……再次见到这个非常具体的人，仿佛就像是认识了一个全新的朋友…
然而，这…并不代表着过去的伤痛被抹平，而是那段经历和眼前这个多年未见的个体已经无法再产生关联…那个当事人只停留在了那个事件，那个时空里…并没有因为今天的他是他而产生变化…而今日的我也并没有因为今日的他是过去的他而怀恨在心……
是我对过往的经历释怀了吗？我觉得并没有…但整个历史事件变得更加抽象和模糊了，它变成我人生的一部分，是我成为我（更好的或更坏的）其中的一个因子……
而当时的他也只不过是当时的他而已…有意或无意似乎都不再重要，也没必要再去追溯了……时隔多年，那些曾经被霸凌的点点滴滴，仿佛也无处牵怒…… 说不清楚的情绪，道不明的感受…我想，也许时间真的有改变和治愈的能力。或许在将来，我能够有力量去接纳和原谅更多的人和事…把他们和情绪完全地剥离开来…
暂时还无法细想，总之，先记录一下好了👌🏻
Tonight, Facebook suddenly brought up the account of an old primary school classmate. It made me think of the one who used to break my erasers, steal my stationery, and scribble all over my homework—the classmate who made much of my childhood unbearably painful.
Seeing this very specific person again, after all these years, somehow felt like meeting an entirely new person.
And yet, this doesn’t mean that the pain of the past has been erased. It’s more that the experience itself and the person standing before me today can no longer be connected in the same way.
The person who did those things exists only within that particular event, in that particular time and place. The fact that he is who he is today doesn’t change what happened back then. And the fact that he is the person from my past doesn’t mean I have to resent the person he is today.
Have I truly made peace with what happened? I don’t think I have.
But somehow, the entire chapter of that history has become more abstract, more blurred with time. It has become simply another part of my life—one of the many things that shaped the person I became, for better or for worse.
And the person he was back then was simply the person he was back then. Whether he did those things intentionally or not no longer seems important. There’s no need to trace it back anymore.
After all these years, those countless little moments of being bullied seem to have nowhere left to direct my anger. It’s a strange feeling—something I can’t quite put into words, something I can’t fully explain. Perhaps time really does have the power to change things, and to heal. Maybe, someday, I’ll have enough strength to accept and forgive more of the people and things that once hurt me—to completely separate them from the emotions they left behind.
I can’t quite bring myself to think about it too deeply yet. For now, I’ll just leave this here. 👌🏻
2024 5/21 - ☀️，MLK
人生没有来日方长，把每一天活成自己想要的模样。
Life doesn’t promise us a tomorrow. So live each day the way you truly want to.
2024 5/18 - 🌧️，MLK
喜欢往往没有成本，而拥有却定要付出 。（记录左思右想两年终于买了 Airpod Max）
Liking something often costs nothing, but owning it always comes at a price. — Finally bought the AirPods Max after two years of going back and forth.
2024 5/12 - ☀️，MLK
你只是来体验生命的 You are just here to experience life
你什么都拥有不了 you can 't own anything
也什么都留不住 you can 't keep anything
不需要证明什么 you don't need to prove anything
更没有什么事是一定要实现的 and there is nothing that must be achieved
你能做的 What you can do is
就是不断尝试，收获，感受 to keep trying . harvesting . feeling
然后放下 and letting go
我拿的又不是锅，怎么放下呢？What I am holding is not a wok/pan, how can I easily holding it and put it down ?
2024 5/8 - 🌧️，MLK
每一段关系的转场，可能都会伴随着一种特效：叠加，字幕，淡出或生切 …
Every transition between relationships is like editing avideo, may come with its own kind of effect: a dissolve, a title card, a fade-out, or a hard cut…
2024 3/25 - ☀️，KL
“世界的所有问题，无非是人的问题”
“很多时候，事情对我们产生多少的影响，并不在于事情本身，而在于我们具备什么认识，以什么心态来处理。”
“The problems of the world are, in the end, simply problems of human beings.
“More often than not, it is not the situation itself that determines how deeply it affects us, but what we understand from it and the mindset with which we choose to face it.”
2024 3/12 - ☀️，KL
初夏雨夜最适合读博尔赫斯 “你是云，是海，是忘却，你也是你曾失去的每一个自己。”
Humit rainy nights are made for reading Borges: “You are the cloud, the sea, oblivion. You are also every version of yourself you have ever lost.”
2024 2/22 - ☀️，MLK
「你太过勇敢安静，我都忘了你正在承受痛苦」 ————— 海明威《永别了，武器》
“You are too brave, too quiet. I almost forgot that you were hurting.” — Ernest Hemingway, A Farewell to Arms
2024 1/25 - 🌧️，MLK
现在开始把自己的生活过好，已经是了不起的能力了。（记录 别离 - EkoCheras）
At this point, simply learning to live a good life on my own is already an extraordinary ability.— A record of seperation | EkoCheras
2023 12/28 - ☀️，KL - MLK
“存在即合理”，这句话源自黑格尔《法哲学原理》。这句话从来都是被不明所以者自以为真理的愚人千古误用。其实黑格尔的原意应该是“凡是存在的都是有原因的。”就是说凡是存在的都是有根源的，可以用逻辑和理性道理去解释，而不是说其在观念、伦理和审视层面都是正确的，合理的，是不应该被批判讨论的。
这句话在媒体被误用，都让我觉得很为难大众。但凡我同人说谈起自己喜好憎恶的观点，总有一种被貌似“存在即合理”的说法怼了回来。我当真使用了“凡是存在的都是有原因的。” 这个理论框架，用理性去分析现存事物吧（比如如何理解XXX系列文章），又会被人说“ 装逼！”“收了对方多少钱！”“ 你不懂我！”
说理太难。
“The existence of something is not the same as its justification.”
The phrase “Whatever exists is rational” comes from Hegel’s *Philosophy of Right*. Yet it has been misunderstood and misused for generations by people who repeat it as though it were some unquestionable truth.
What Hegel actually meant is closer to: “Whatever exists has its reasons.” In other words, everything that exists has its origins and causes, and can be examined and understood through logic and reason. It does not mean that everything that exists is therefore right, ethical, or beyond criticism and discussion.
The way this phrase gets misused in the media often leaves me feeling that we’ve done the public a disservice. Whenever I talk to someone about something I like or dislike, I often get hit back with some version of “Well, if it exists, there must be a reason for it.”
But when I actually use the framework of “everything exists for a reason” and try to examine something rationally—say, when trying to understand a certain series of articles—I’m met with, “You’re just showing off,” “How much did they pay you?” or “You just don’t understand me!”
Trying to reason with people is hard.
2023 5/31 - ☁️，KL
当今工作使人倦怠，多半不是福利差，而是普世中的人类都是咸鱼。
What makes work exhausting these days isn’t necessarily poor benefits—it’s that, deep down, most people are just lazy fish.
2023 5/26 - ☀️，KL
"当你开始爱上一样东西或爱上一个人的时候，一定是在TA 最美好的时候。"
“When you begin to fall in love with something—or someone—it’s always at their most beautiful and the best conditions at that time.”
2023 4/17 - 🌧️，KL
我们的善良，很大的部分是因为我们运气很好。
A large part of our kindness comes from the fact that we’ve been fortunate.
2023 2/26 - 🌧️，KL
"有些人注定只能陪你走到他能力所及的地方，我和你一样，我什么都记得。我用尽力气送你上火车，却没有勇气自己回家。"
-------- Call Me by Your Name 《以你的名字呼唤我》小说
“Some people are only meant to walk with you as far as they are able to. Like you, I remember everything. I used every strength I had to see you walk onto the train, but I didn’t have the courage to go home alone.” ------- Rephrased and recalled from Call Me by Your Name
2023 2/11 - ☀️，KL
「心的所归所属之地是在瞬间的当下的空。不在过去，也不在未来。它不索取，也不占有世界上任何一种有形和无形的东西。这是瑜伽带给我们的智慧。当你真正放下了别人的看法，对幸福的执着，对痛苦的抗拒，放下了追逐与攀比，放下了利益与得失。当你不再想着占有，不想着表现自己，只是尽自己所能发挥上帝赋予人本能的天赋和纯净的那部分诗，你的心就会拥有至高无上的自由，平静与喜悦。」———— 《瑜伽之树 · 艾扬格》
“The place where the heart truly belongs is in the emptiness of the present moment. It is neither in the past nor in the future. It asks for nothing, nor does it seek to possess anything in this world, tangible or intangible.
This is the wisdom yoga gives us. When you truly let go of other people’s opinions, your attachment to happiness, your resistance to pain, the endless pursuit and comparison, and the obsession with gain and loss; when you no longer seek to possess or prove yourself, but simply do your best to express the innate gifts and pure poetry that God has given you—your heart will discover the highest form of freedom, peace, and joy.”
— B.K.S. Iyengar, The Tree of Yoga
2023 2/3 - 🌧️，KL
聪明，具有天赋并愿意展示的人，往往比常人拥有更多无法抑制的性需求 ...
从生物学的角度来举例：孔雀开屏，鸟鸣蛙叫，所有的 " 炫技" 都是为了求偶。
People who are intelligent, naturally gifted, and willing to show it off often seem to have stronger, harder-to-suppress sexual urges…
From a biological perspective, just look at the peacock spreading its feathers, birds singing, frogs calling—all that “showing off” is ultimately about attracting a mate.
2023 1/26 - ☀️，KL
关于思考其实很简单，
比如：这一篇如果按照时间排序是下一篇的上一篇；如果是页面排版也是上一篇的下一篇。
Thinking is actually quite simple.
For example, if you arrange the posts chronologically, this one comes after the previous one; but in terms of page layout, it comes before it.
2023 1/25 - 🌧️，KL
这个世界是由中子、质子、电子、骗子和傻子组成。
“The world is made up of neutrons, protons, electrons, liars, and idiots.”
2023 1/23 - 🌧️，MLK
社会现象有感：
初见之时，我们都包装自己，成为让对方觉得我们内外在都是符合对方认知里舒适相处的人；
时日久了，必然还原真我，若对方看不过眼的就是对方起了异心、善变；
要是对方提起「人生若只如初见」，就成了：「你根本不喜欢真实的我。」
A thought on human relationships:
When we first meet, we all package ourselves into versions that make the other person feel comfortable—inside and out, we become who we think they’ll like.
But as time passes, the real us inevitably comes through. And if the other person can no longer accept what they see, we call it a change of heart, or accuse them of being fickle.
And if they ever say, “If only life could remain as beautiful as when we first met,” it eventually becomes:
“You never really liked the real me.”
2023 1/1 - ☁️，KL
2023 年，快要 28岁了。
当年我16岁，想像 26岁人的外表和心态该是怎么模样的；
直到今天才发现，原来自己快 28 岁的人了，基本上跟 16 岁的心智没差，
就是读书考试的生活变成了还贷款、税务，还有每天都要想「今晚吃什么？」
2023. I was almost 28.
When I was 16, I used to imagine what someone in their late twenties would look like, and what kind of mindset they would have.
Only now do I realize that, at almost 28, my mind is basically still the same as it was at 16.
The only difference is that studying and exams have been replaced by loan repayments, taxes, and the eternal question:
“What am I going to eat tonight?”
2022 12/31 - ☀️，KL
这几年，那么多大大小小，远远近近，广广泛泛的人、事、情，都反反复复地验证了一句特别之及其有感的一句话：
「家」就不是一个讲道理的地方。
Over the past few years, all kinds of people, situations, and relationships—near and far, big and small—have repeatedly proven one thing to me, a sentence that has resonated with me more and more: “Home is simply not a place where you reason things out.”
2022 11/28 - 🌧️，KL
以前总觉得思考很酷。年纪渐长发现思考真伤神。总结是：不要思考，思考有害身心健康！
I used to think ----- thinking was cool.
As I’ve gotten older, I’ve realized that thinking is actually exhausting.
So here’s my conclusion:
Don’t think. Thinking is bad for your physical and mental health!
2022 11/13 - 🌧️，KL
明白 / 理解， 不代表要接受。
Understanding something doesn’t mean you have to accept it.
2022 10/20 - ☁️，KL
想要踏出所谓舒适圈的人，其实此时此刻并不舒适。我们一生追随的，祈求神灵赋予的，不就是希望自己能舒适些吗？应该说，我们幻想中的“舒适”，在认知里需要用自己内心或体感不太舒适的方式去获取。先不聊那些“舒适”是否真实是我们想要的，也许我们参考的所谓达成目标的范本，之所以会让我们向内挣扎，因为，那是“别人的方式”，而不是“我”的方式。
People who want to step outside their so-called comfort zone are, in fact, already uncomfortable in the present moment.
After all, isn’t what we spend our lives pursuing, what we pray the gods will grant us, simply the hope of being more comfortable? Perhaps what we call “comfort” in our imagination can only be attained through things that make us feel uncomfortable, both mentally and physically.
Let’s not even get into whether that “comfort” is truly what we want. Maybe the reason the models we look to for achieving our goals create so much inner struggle is simply because they are "someone else’s way", not "ours".
2022 10/18 - 🌧️，KL
很多人说要追求“松弛感”，而“追求”这件事本身就使人无法松弛…
A lot of people say they want to pursue a sense of “ease / effortless.” But the very act of pursuing it makes it impossible to truly feel at ease.
2022 10/15 - ☀️，KL
“一名女子跳海自尽，因为会游泳，在水里边游边哭” …… 被无意间刷到的一则旧闻触动…
“A woman jumped into the sea to end her life. Because she knew how to swim, she kept swimming and crying in the water.” I happened to come across this old news story while scrolling, and somehow, it stayed with me.
2022 9/20 - 🌧️，KL
“严肃认真源于对时间的高估。在永恒中根本不存在时间，永恒只是一瞬间，刚好够开个玩笑。”
“Seriousness comes from overestimating time. In eternity, there is no such thing as time. Eternity is merely a moment—just long enough to tell a joke.”
2022 8/14 - ☀️，KL
"陷入爱的过程，就是刺猬变得血肉模糊的过程。
不过，还好我们拥有从爱中滑落的时间。 "
“Falling in love is the process of a hedgehog becoming covered in blood.
But thankfully, we’re given time to slowly slip out of love.”
2022 8/6 - ☀️，KL
"总有人问读书目的，范雨素说，读书不是为了记住，而是为了让人干净。一本书可能读了就忘，就像竹篮打水，但你一直读下去，竹篮就一次次被放进水里，时间长了，竹篮就变得干净。看似空空，内在的快乐不足为外人道也。 "
People often ask what the purpose of reading is.
Fan Yusu once said, “We don’t read to remember, but to become clean.”
You may forget a book soon after reading it, much like filling water with a bamboo woven basket. But if you keep reading, the basket is dipped into the water again and again. Over time, it becomes clean. It may seem as though you have gained nothing, yet the joy within you is something that cannot be put into words for others.
2022 7/31 - ☀️，KL
只要我没有道德，就不怕被道德绑架。
“If I have no morals, I have nothing to fear from moral blackmail.”
2022 7/25 - ☀️，KL
"一个人如果害怕，他还能勇敢吗？"
"人在害怕时候的勇敢，才是真的勇敢。"
“If a person is afraid, can they still be brave?”
“It is the courage we find when we are afraid that is true courage.”
2022 8/4 - ☀️，KL
许多人和很多事情，都像长在眼睛上的睫毛，因为离得太近，以致于我们看不见。
“Many people and many things are like the eyelashes growing on our eyes—because they are too close, we fail to see them.”
2022 7/9 - ☀️，KL
每次完成任务都感觉像是交考卷。明知自己你现在只能考到60分，都只能交卷。毕竟不交卷就是 0 分！
Every time I finish a task, it feels like handing in an exam paper.
Even when I know that, right now, I can only score 60 out of 100, I still have to hand it in.
Because if I don’t hand it in, it’s a zero.
2022 6/29 - ☀️，KL
“ 时间不会优待任何人，每个人都有可能走下坡路。当你真正走在下坡路上的时候，往下走，也就是往前走。”
“Time favors no one. Anyone can find themselves going downhill.
And when you truly find yourself on the way down, moving downward is still moving forward.”
2022 6/25 - ☀️，KL
看到很多上了年纪明星的访谈都被问及最好的年纪，其中最触动到我的是：「只要没病痛每天都是最好的。」忘了谁说了。
I’ve seen so many interviews with older celebrities where they’re asked what they think was the best age of their lives.
The answer that stayed with me the most was:
“As long as you’re free from illness and pain, every day is the best day.”
I just can’t remember who said it.
2022 6/18 - ☀️，KL
《本杰明.巴顿奇事》中有一段是本杰明给他女儿的信中的文字：
“我希望你能有值得自豪的一生，如果你发现生活和你想象的不一样，希望你能有勇气，重新启程。”
There’s a passage in *The Curious Case of Benjamin Button*, from a letter Benjamin wrote to his daughter:
“I hope you have a life you can be proud of. And if you ever find that life isn’t what you imagined it would be, I hope you have the courage to start over.”
2022 6/13 - ☁️，KL
“自由这个词，看着就像条条框框。”
“Even the word ‘freedom’ looks like a set of rules and boundaries (frames and lines) in the chinese word: 自由”
2022 6/10 - ☀️，KL
“这个世界不会变好了，但是我会。” #谁痛苦谁改变
“The world isn’t going to get better, but I will.”
#WhoeverHurtsIsTheOneWhoChanges
2022 6/6 - ☁️，KL
人不太可能能在安全的状态下成长自己，所有的成长，都是在危险和挑战中被激发出来的。
然而，这仅仅只是前提，我们还需要拿出具体的措施和行动，来匹配现实的遭遇。如若不然，最终的悲惨结局，恐怕真的会发生…
It’s difficult for people to truly grow while remaining in a state of complete safety. Growth is often awakened by danger and challenges.
But that is only the starting point. We still need to take concrete measures and action to meet what reality throws at us.
Otherwise, the tragic outcome we fear may very well become reality...
2022 5/29 - ☁️，KL
心血来潮尝试登陆新浪博客 7:53 PM。竟然给我找到我的主页和我曾经写作的一些内容。在这里需要 ARCHIVE。
On a whim, I tried logging into Sina Blog at 7:53 PM.
And somehow, I actually found my old homepage and some of the things I used to write.
This definitely needs to be archived.
2022 5/22 - ☀️，KL
为了抹去不快乐的参照，过去做了太多刻意的事情。我在脑内收留的证据，是被遗忘之物的根本。最后它们依然无法改变我，是我审视它们的，着手要修正的。这时愕然发现，他们已经成为了别的东西。其实我根本无法推翻过去，也不能让任何未来成立。时间只把自己织成了一张劣质的网膜，捕捉不了什么，却挂在尘埃上。
I did too many deliberate things in the past, trying to erase the reference points of unhappiness.
The evidence I chose to keep inside my mind became the very foundation of what I had forgotten. In the end, they still couldn’t change me. It was I who examined them, who began to try to correct them.
And then, suddenly, I realized that they had already become something else. Perhaps I was never able to overturn the past, nor could I make any future come true.
Time has merely woven itself into a flimsy membrane of a net—unable to capture much of anything, yet still hanging there, suspended in the dust.
2022 5/21 - ☀️，KL
最近发现，对我来说所谓的成熟，就是有了真正讨厌的人吧。 小的时候没有什么关于讨厌甚至憎恨的汉爵是因为认真把事情看进眼里的太少，更多的是畏惧同伴之间的摩擦而引起事情会导致长辈怎么处罚，也觉得总是抱着一颗不甘的心灰头灰脸实在是太没有型。现在长大了，把尘封在心底的那份认同，重新挖出来去鉴定，确实是的！能够真正去厌恶一个人并疏远，是成长中其中一个成熟的表现，与对错无关，与正负面无关，就是更了解自己，分辨自己的喜恶。
Lately, I’ve come to realize that perhaps maturity, for me, is simply having people I genuinely dislike.
When I was younger, I rarely truly disliked—or even hated—anyone. Perhaps it was because I took too few things seriously enough to see them for what they were. More often, I was simply afraid of the friction between people, and of what consequences it might bring from the adults around me. I also thought that carrying resentment around and looking miserable over it was simply not a good look.
Now that I’m older, I’ve dug up that long-buried sense of recognition from within myself and examined it again.
And yes. It’s real.
Being able to genuinely dislike someone and choose to distance yourself from them is, in its own way, a sign of growing up. It has nothing to do with right or wrong, or with whether the feeling is positive or negative.
It simply means you understand yourself better, and you’re able to recognize what you do—and don’t—like.
2022 4/15 - ☁️，KL